I'm probably late on this, but I just discovered this online sketch tool called odosketch... its pretty darn cool. Not only does it save your drawing, but it also records your process. So you can replay it afterwards. Fun! There are quite a few good drawings featured on this site. I think I'll try doing my 5 minutes-a-day drawing exercises using this tool. Since you can just copy the embed code, it makes for a quick post. Can't wait to practice my tablet skills on this. Here's my first experiment using a mouse.
Been looking for something to get amped about.. something to excite me. Maestro provides some inspiration here, visiting the Nike Campus. Easy and I visited this place last year, but of course were NOT allowed in. It'll always be a dream of mine to work there. Right now.. seems more like a fantasy.. but you never know. Gotta keep the dream alive.
Past couple days have been like crawling through mud. My energy level is soo low and negative. Shoulders are tight. Changing old habits has been difficult. Not a good start to my campaign of reaching the next "rich day".
As Dru has reminded me, I have a horrible sense of time. Its a definite must that I improve on this if I plan on being successful at anything. Along with time, I also have trouble dealing with anything having to do with factual numbers. Hard numbers scare me! I've developed a fear of hard truths. I think I like the idea that everything can be bent and molded into something that appears pleasing to me. Ummm.. yah.. time to face the facts. So as Dru has recommended.. look at the numbers as often as you can. Check your bank account.. know exactly whats going on.. look at your watch.. how much time do you really have?
I had a great conversation with Vince and Danny earlier this evening. Picked their brains a bit and ask them on how I could improve my communication skills when dealing with business matters. They both provided good advice. One of the themes they recommended was that I try remembering something interesting that someone else tells me and regurgitating that information to another party. Its simple enough and should help me talk to more people. I should be interacting and participating in conversation instead of being the silent guy at the table. It should also help me develop a stronger opinion on things. I'll try to do this at least once a day.
Just last night, Steve, who is a very good story teller, explained to me – in less than 5 minutes – what the TV Series “Lost” is all about. He broke it down in a very simple and easily understood manner, season by season. I wish I could gather my thoughts like that and explain something to someone else with such clarity. My thoughts are always jumbled and a speak like an idiot. ANYWAY.. I digress, cuz I’m not posting about my speech impediment, rather I want to talk about my feelings. And what I’m feeling right now is sad. :0( Boooooo. hehe. I’ve got all these thoughts in my head and its taking up all my memory.. everything else is starting to crash. Its time to ablate and write/type it all out.
So what happened is that I just came back from an incredible trip in Hawaii...yes, yes.. what the f*ck does this guy have to be sad about right? Yah I’m aware that it is completely selfish and that I have a bad attitude towards this whole thing about feeling sad.. heck I should be totally recharged and ready to go right? NOPE. What actually ended up happening was a punch in the throat. A feeling of let down. Its been hard to swallow and embrace anything lately. I feel like I came back with a clean perspective of my current life. That somebody just gave my life back to me in its current state and I can’t help but feel sh*tty about it. Here take it.. this is yours. F*ck this sh*t is heavy! Do I have to take it? I came back a different person from when I left. I came back with no worries... smiles ear to ear, but of course... the Rich that exists here was just waiting for me.
Its been an introspective week. Trying to figure out why I feel the way I feel. Yes, coming from paradise back to work is a stark contrast and anybody would feel somewhat sad about leaving paradise. Which brings me back to Steve and “Lost”.. he explained that in the 4th or 5th Season(?) the people on the island found a way to escape, but when given the opportunity half of them elected to stay, finding that their lives on the island were much better than their past lives that they left behind. BLAU... thats exactly how I feel. except... I would want to stay on the island only if all my friends and family were with me! haha. I want everything damnit! At any rate.. I dont think I’m trying to say that I reaaally want to start a new life in Hawaii and leave my life in Vancouver for good. I love Vancouver... I would never do something drastic like that. What I think has happened is that I realize that I’ve made a mess of things here. That I’ve set myself up for sadness and frustration. The good news is that I also realize the possiblity of living a happier life. If I can be THAT happy in Hawaii.. why couldn’t I bring atleast some of that style of living back home. Why the f*ck not?
Okay, so after all this blabber.. whats the result? Gotta change things up and make some rules for myslef to ensure a change in my life. Maybe not so much rules... just guides.. so I remember to change. I tend to forget that I’m not satisfied and just get stuck in the routine again. Alright.. so here it is:
1. Treat my 9-5 as a 9-5. Be more consistent with my hours.. get to work early and reduce the OT. Work is work. Leave it there.
2. Complete all side projects/freelance work and reject anything new coming in. Say NO Rich, its okay to say NO. I must free up my time and concentrate on personal projects for a while. Gotta nurture that creativity and not worry so much about doing business and pleasing others. F*ck it, gotta make ME happy now!
3. Exercise: run/bike/weights/basketball/vball/dance. I love sports and activities.. I cannot live without it.
4. Friends. Make a point of seeing my friends atleast once a week. They are important to me and they balance me out.
5. Try being an influencer and not an accomadator. I think this requires a post of its own to explain fully.. but basically gotta learn to be confident and be more forward.. be sure about my ideas and not just take orders from others. Lets RUN THIS SH*T.. take charge! Stop aplogizing.. no more of that weak sh*t. F*ck the servant, make everyone happy type attitude.. its not working.
6. Last but not least. Pay attention to Easy and make her feel special. We spend tons of time together, but that doesn’t mean that I’ve been a good partner. She improves me, I gotta show my appreciation.
Growing up I participated in a bunch of different sports; basketball, badminton, tennis, volleyball, just to name a few. Each one affecting or inspiring me in many different ways, but I realized there would always be this one common ground. This one universal feeling of striving to become better, learning, working at it, and then eventually achieving those goals. Like looking up at the 10 foot hoop, visualizing myself leaping, flying up there with ball in hand, throwing it down and grabbing that rim hanging, savouring it for just a moment. I would look up and say to myself, "one day Rich, one of these days it'll happen." ...
These types of accomplishments for me, these "days of flight" certainly don't happen everyday. In fact when they do happen, it always happens in a flash and then its over.